Monday, 13 August 2012
It's hard.But I'm doing it.
Everyday I woke up with the fact that you're no longer there.
But I'm still breathing so life has to go on.
Another day has yet to come..
Then again..I have to face the emptiness I felt inside without you.
Whenever I see something interesting,
Whenever I'm in seventh cloud..
Whenever I felt life was unfair,
Whenever someone blew my top off,
And whenever I felt like crying..
The reality hits me.
I CAN NO LONGER SHARE IT WITH YOU.
I'm still trying to understand how you easily move on,
How you easily laugh when talking about her,
How you haven't had the slightest idea about how I would feel when you act like that..
It's hard..But I'm doing it.
It's hard not to cry when I heard song related to us,
But I'm doing it.
It's hard not to remember everything we used to do together,
But I'm doing it.
It's hard to leave everything behind and forget them,
But I'm doing it.
It's hard to live without you.But I'm doing it.
SYE.
Friday, 10 August 2012
Sometimes, you just can't see.
''It's your fault for hurting me like this''
''You never consider about my feelings.I'm the one who expect too much.''
''Look at what you've done!It's all your fault!!''
''You never care about me at all!''
Heard it?
Said it?
Well.. as a human being, we tend to blame others whenever we have problems.
Whether in love relationship,
family,
works, etc..
It always easy to look at other peoples faults.
But.. why is it so hard to see our own faults and harder to admit it?
We always expect others to understand us.
Accept us.
Love us.
Just like we want it to be.
And when they are not just like we expected,
We get mad and blames.
We always think that we've done right.
But they always messed it up.
Is it really so?
Or we just blinded by fear of getting wrong?
Or just don't have the courage to admit that we were wrong?
Only we have that answer.
People make mistakes.
Why?
Because we are not perfect.
And that's what unique about human being.
How?
There's always room for changes.
Don't keep blaming others.
See more than just on the surfaces.
We can make the difference.
SYE.
Tuesday, 7 August 2012
The Sun Will Shine.
Well, nobody is perfect.
Flaws, mistakes, and regrets.
We live with all of that.
But..
There always space for change.
Turn on the new page.
For
New chapters, new stories, new journey.
One day,
The cuts will be a scar.
The moments will be a history.
And, today will be yesterday.
So why waste your time?
Complete the circle.
Wake up.
Move on.
Its time to be reborn.
I'll walk on,
To the future without you.
I'll change,
To be the better me.
I'll create,
New beautiful memories.
I'll smile..
So I won't have to cry.
The rain has poured,
The storm has passed,
The skies now clear,
Now
It's time for the sun to shine.
SYE.
Monday, 6 August 2012
Part of my memory.
Well..It all started back then when I was 14..I was egoistic and ignorant girl who knew nothing about love.And 6 years past after then.. I still don't really understand it.
Two months ago, my long-term relationship finally reach it stopping point. We broke up after 3 years dating and took a break for a year before we started dating again and after almost 2 years, he said to me he fell in love with another.
Holding back from my tears.. I said.. go and pursue your dream girl. I asked him whether he needs any help regarding that girl, he coldly said : I'm going to get her myself.I'm not stopping until I got her. (well..something like that). Hearing that, My heart was broken. But I laughingly said, yeah, you can do it.
Since the conversation took place on the phone, he can't see the trembling me. I cried a lot that day. Thinking.. blaming.
Well.. after two months.. I realizes thing I haven't for 6 years.
It just like this.
We were walking together, happily, side by side.
But at some point, one of us stopped.
And the other one keeps on walking.
Without turning back to ask, 'What's wrong?',
The person keeps on walking.
When the person realizes that he was far too ahead,
It was already to late to turn back,
Because the one that stopped,
Was no longer there.
It's hard to believe that it's over. I still cried listening to love song and it's still hard to watch love scenes without you popping in my head. But I do believe that someday, this will end. I'll move on and someday..you will just be a part of my memory.
SYE.
Too Lazy
Its been more than 2 months since I last posted an entry here.I was too lazy too update and all the story I planned to write ended only drafted in my head,haha.Since there's a lot going on in my life now, I lost myself for a moment.But, hey, I'm back.I'm not going to lose myself anymore. This past two month make me realizes something I haven't for the past six years. Well, let bygone be bygone. SYE.