Sunday, 28 October 2012
My typical weekend
we took this pic yesterday when outing to Spring with my dad n it was in fitting room! haha :)
My midterm break for 10 days started since last Friday.
I was so excited since I'll have more time to rest
BUT!
All my lecturers left me with bundle of assignments
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Midterm exam right after our break ended.
Urgh!
Frustating!
I thought that when we have this break I'll have more time to spend with my dad but he have sudden meeting at KL for a week!
n left me all alone with Zinny at this house.
So..
all of that left me with this typical weekend.
no dad so no outing.
this is boring.
Me and Zinny were stuck at this house for the whole day.
Playing games
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Watching DVD's
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Making our own little spa
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etc.
We were so damn boring! huhu
Can't wait for my typical tomorrow.
Hmm.
(>_<)
SYE.
Monday, 22 October 2012
Don't give me excuses!
Recently..you have a lot of excuses huh?
You know.. you can tell me the truth.
Its not like I'm gonna hate you if you tell me the truth.
It hurts me when you lied.
I hate it when you lied.
I wish you were just gone.
Don't remind me that you were still there.
If you wanna walk away, do it right.
Don't keep reappears and make me more confused.
I keep thinking..
Who am I to you exactly?
You keep giving me excuses lately
It's sooo not like you.
If you think that by lying you can hurt me less..
Wrong!
You only hurt me more.
You know I like truth more than anything else.
It hurts me to see how you force yourself..
I told you I'm fine.
I never asked for your attention..
Nor I'm fighting for it.
Because if you really love me.
I shouldn't have to do it.
So..stop with the excuses.
It's time to withdraw myself from you.
If you are reluctant to do it,
then..let me the one to finish it.
It's time to build a wall.
SYE.
Friday, 12 October 2012
Can't Help feeling Jealous.
In my life, I always want something that I can't have.
Strange, isn't it?
One of my friends used to say that,
"Things that u want, but can't have does not necessarily good for you..and vice versa.."
Yeah, she was right.
It always make me jealous when I look at other people who have someone that always will be there for them.
How they were loved,
How they were being taken care of..
And I can't help but to wonder why didn't I have a life like that?
It would be lovely isn't it?
I've been independent all my life.
I tried to lean on others but the fear of being betrayed live in every part of me.
It makes me hard to depend on others.
And to open my heart as well.
Since the last time I did that,
It hurt me badly.
I always said to my friend, it's okay if I was alone.
Since I'm used to it.
But obviously, it's a lie doesnt it?
Loneliness is something that I can't never get used of.
For once in my life I wished I have that kind of someone beside me.
Like he existed for me.
Someone who really care.Not just pretending to.
It will.. one day maybe?
N I'll wait..until that time comes.
My special someone. (^_^)
SYE.
Wednesday, 10 October 2012
At times like this.
At times like this.. exactly at times like this..I hate it when it comes to time like this.
Sometimes.. I wish I were stronger.
N much more honest.
When I looked around.. and saw that it was empty,
all I can do is cry.
These days are tiring and hard for me..
Just like snowflakes, I wish it would just melt away.
I wish you would just fade away.
I live my life laughing,
Pretending I dont care..
But the fact that my heart was longing for you can't never change.
If there was a way to separate my heart from my mind,
I'd done it.
If there was a way to kill my heart so it wont hurt that much,
I'd done it.
But as a normal human being,
I can't help but to feel..
And at times like this,
Exactly at times like this..
I miss you the most.
Seeing how my phone never rings..
And I cant even text you,
Somehow, it hurts so much
And I began to think again..
Why..why should it be you.
You who doesnt even know the slightest bit of how I go through my life each day,
You who didnt look at me the same way I do..
I cant help but to think that..
I wish my heart were smarter when it comes to love a person.
Because at times like this..
I just want you to be here,
Completing me.
Exactly at times like this.
SYE.