Sunday, 5 February 2012
May ALLAH bless U.
I don't know how many time I've cried because of u but right now I'm just too sad and it seems I can't stop my tears from falling.
I tried to be cool every time you cursed at me but it just hurt so badly that I can't hold back my tears.
U never know how much I love u right?
Why u never changed??
Why do u keep hurting me with your cursing words.
Instead of holding my hand why do u keep pushing me away??
Instead of keep me standing why u let me fall??
My weak feet can't stand no more.
..I..love you so much..It's killing me for u to do this to me..
I wish I can stop loving u so that it wont hurt too much but how can I?.
U were a part of me..My heart beats because of you..
Why can't u look at me as someone u need to love and care for.
N for god sake u don't even know my favourite food!
'x kan selamat..hidup kamu..insyallah itu yg akn aku doakn pd ALLAH utk kmu'
I may can smile when u say those words but my heart is breaking n u just can't see that.U never know.N u never understand.
Even how much I love u M..we love u M.. M will never change right?
I've always pray that u changed and be good to all of us.
I'm too tired of u n I can't take it anymore.
I'm sorry M.
I'm going to let ALLAH decide what's going to happen.
I love u M but u're too far n I'm too weak to hold it any longer.
May ALLAH bless u.
That's all I can hope 4.
*fenin*
*My head is spinningg**
Have u guys complete ure UPU yet?
Hm.. It's complicated and I hate complicated stuff.
Too many choice but it seem to little for me to choose.
HAI..**fenin kepala otak aku ni heh**
I want to choose course that I like and in the same time be able to carry it.
But the problem is what I like is something that not related to science at all.
N I took modul 1 here in PMC (biology, physic, chem, math )
+_+ i'm doomed.
honestly.. I like multimedia.. computer graphic n sewaktu dgnnyelah.
But the problem is.. daddy said it's minor thing while I can go for bigger thing.
Yes, I did perform well despite of my 'x minat kat sains ni hah' when i got 3.75 during my 2010/2011 session and 3.91 during my PSPM 1 (peperiksaan semester program matrikulasi 1).
I was shocked seeing my own result because I didn't expect it at all. I really really really x mnat sains okeh.
But.. again..
I have to choose between science ( daddy's wish ) n multimedia.
*fenin!!!*
Have u guys complete ure UPU yet?
Hm.. It's complicated and I hate complicated stuff.
Too many choice but it seem to little for me to choose.
HAI..**fenin kepala otak aku ni heh**
I want to choose course that I like and in the same time be able to carry it.
But the problem is what I like is something that not related to science at all.
N I took modul 1 here in PMC (biology, physic, chem, math )
+_+ i'm doomed.
honestly.. I like multimedia.. computer graphic n sewaktu dgnnyelah.
But the problem is.. daddy said it's minor thing while I can go for bigger thing.
Yes, I did perform well despite of my 'x minat kat sains ni hah' when i got 3.75 during my 2010/2011 session and 3.91 during my PSPM 1 (peperiksaan semester program matrikulasi 1).
I was shocked seeing my own result because I didn't expect it at all. I really really really x mnat sains okeh.
But.. again..
I have to choose between science ( daddy's wish ) n multimedia.
*fenin!!!*
Saturday, 4 February 2012
I go for A you go for B, so what?!
I like korean drama and you dont..so what?!
Heee..meluat gilaa bila orang tnye 'apesal ang suka sgt ngan gambaq korea tu hah?'
Hish.suke ati cek lah cek nk suka apa pon..ade masalah ka?
First of all..
It's not the actors I look at, It's the beauty of the artwork of the drama that I admires the most okeh!
'mesti sbb laki die ensem pompuan plak kiut miut kan?'
XWRONGX
I like kdrama because of the emotions it shows.Kalo nangis tu nmpk memang sedih la..
Every plot come with a reason..bukan main buat je..kire sistematik la.Citer x berterabur.
The seriousness of them to bring out a good drama for us to watch. Especially actions drama, memang perghh..staill. Lawan lawan nye scene mmg terbaik lah kan.
Second.
It's not that I don't watch malay dramas..I do. But certain.
'yelah..mne nak setanding dgn pelakon korea yg lawa2 kan'
XWRONGX
Bknnye I xnk tgk U.. Tp kdg2 meluat! paham dak meluat sgt bile dok pakai 'wig' la ape la.
Yg da berumur brlagak cm mude lg lah.
Bile sad scene x jadi! ase nk gelak je.
Plot kdg2 xrelevan ngan citer. Xde point kdg2.
Pastu byk yg menjatuhkan maruah melayu. Nak example?? tgk bju cukupla. Awat? kalo berlakon mmg xley pakai bju penuh tutup tutup ke?
Xyah tiru korea sgt laa knn..da dorg mmg budaya cmtu.
Open minded la konon..mmg la da open sini sana.
Kalo pakai tutup tutup pon orang tgk what. Tgk akak Lisa Surihani. (pelakon fav I tuuu) pakai elok je.
Pastu x abeh2 wat citer pasal berebot harta. Nmpk sgt laa yg mind setting kite ni asyik nk rebot arta org len je.Tgk Nur kasih. Ramai je yg suke. X rebot2 arta pon.Islamik lg U..
Third
I love the Kdrama OST the most!
They know when they should put the background music.
It actually helps enhance the scene. Happy ke sedih ke suspens ke bile blend ngan music tbe2 jadi lg gempak walaupun lgu 2 biase je kdg2.
Bukan nk kutuk la kan..mgkin kite kurang teknologi or yg sewaktu dengannya lah kan, tp kdg2 drama lain ( xnk ckp drama ape satg kene sue la plak)..
X kene betol part dorg letak lagu. Dah la x kene. Lagu plak x sesuai! Potong feel lahh..taw x..
Lagenda budak setan nye feel perghhh naik bile dengar lagu die je. Camtu la kite nk.Bile sedey tu boley wat org nangis taw dgn adenye background music yg sedey gak. Ni x main taram je kan nk buh lagu ape.
Ok. Everyone have their own preferences kan. Things I dont like might be the things U like and vice versa. But! that doesnt mean U can argue about my preferences. If u want B then go for B but dont criticize A.
Heee..meluat gilaa bila orang tnye 'apesal ang suka sgt ngan gambaq korea tu hah?'
Hish.suke ati cek lah cek nk suka apa pon..ade masalah ka?
First of all..
It's not the actors I look at, It's the beauty of the artwork of the drama that I admires the most okeh!
'mesti sbb laki die ensem pompuan plak kiut miut kan?'
XWRONGX
I like kdrama because of the emotions it shows.Kalo nangis tu nmpk memang sedih la..
Every plot come with a reason..bukan main buat je..kire sistematik la.Citer x berterabur.
The seriousness of them to bring out a good drama for us to watch. Especially actions drama, memang perghh..staill. Lawan lawan nye scene mmg terbaik lah kan.
Second.
It's not that I don't watch malay dramas..I do. But certain.
'yelah..mne nak setanding dgn pelakon korea yg lawa2 kan'
XWRONGX
Bknnye I xnk tgk U.. Tp kdg2 meluat! paham dak meluat sgt bile dok pakai 'wig' la ape la.
Yg da berumur brlagak cm mude lg lah.
Bile sad scene x jadi! ase nk gelak je.
Plot kdg2 xrelevan ngan citer. Xde point kdg2.
Pastu byk yg menjatuhkan maruah melayu. Nak example?? tgk bju cukupla. Awat? kalo berlakon mmg xley pakai bju penuh tutup tutup ke?
Xyah tiru korea sgt laa knn..da dorg mmg budaya cmtu.
Open minded la konon..mmg la da open sini sana.
Kalo pakai tutup tutup pon orang tgk what. Tgk akak Lisa Surihani. (pelakon fav I tuuu) pakai elok je.
Pastu x abeh2 wat citer pasal berebot harta. Nmpk sgt laa yg mind setting kite ni asyik nk rebot arta org len je.Tgk Nur kasih. Ramai je yg suke. X rebot2 arta pon.Islamik lg U..
Third
I love the Kdrama OST the most!
They know when they should put the background music.
It actually helps enhance the scene. Happy ke sedih ke suspens ke bile blend ngan music tbe2 jadi lg gempak walaupun lgu 2 biase je kdg2.
Bukan nk kutuk la kan..mgkin kite kurang teknologi or yg sewaktu dengannya lah kan, tp kdg2 drama lain ( xnk ckp drama ape satg kene sue la plak)..
X kene betol part dorg letak lagu. Dah la x kene. Lagu plak x sesuai! Potong feel lahh..taw x..
Lagenda budak setan nye feel perghhh naik bile dengar lagu die je. Camtu la kite nk.Bile sedey tu boley wat org nangis taw dgn adenye background music yg sedey gak. Ni x main taram je kan nk buh lagu ape.
Ok. Everyone have their own preferences kan. Things I dont like might be the things U like and vice versa. But! that doesnt mean U can argue about my preferences. If u want B then go for B but dont criticize A.
All alone..
One thing I hate about my house?
..it is too far from PMC and I can't go back when it just 4 days of holidays.
And here I am. Alone. In this not-so-big room. With 3 other empty beds. While my roommates having fun with their family. Sticking with my lappy. Too afraid to get to sleep. Yeah. It feel so-damn-great.
I did told them I'm fine. I'm used to it. blah blah blah..
I just can't tell them the truth, am I?
It's not that I love to lie but what can they do even if I say I'm not fine at all, ladies..
HTH am I going to be fine when it JUST 4 DAYS SLEEPING ALONE AND MISSING MY HOUSE.
So, where do exactly my-far-house is?
????
Actually I live in kuching SWK.No.I didn't born in SWK. I just live there.
With my lovely daddy. (I miss U so much already daddy..) I just moved in to his house about a year ago.. He lives there for almost 8years already.
So I definitely can't go back when it just 4 days,right?.
..boring..
Now I'm all alone..
Planning all the things I should do to keep my time wasted for another 4 days..
Seriously..
..I miss the smell on my bed..
..I miss the radios playing in the morning when my daddy's sitting with a mug of coffee and papers in his hand..haha..
..I miss the time when we have our lunch together talking about things..
Eventhough the time I spent with U are not that much,dad..
But the time I spent last year with U do means a lot for me. I get to know you.. I get to hear you and see you..
..and.. I get to love you more. I love you, dad. From the bottom of my heart. I hope I will never be separated from you again, dad.
..it is too far from PMC and I can't go back when it just 4 days of holidays.
And here I am. Alone. In this not-so-big room. With 3 other empty beds. While my roommates having fun with their family. Sticking with my lappy. Too afraid to get to sleep. Yeah. It feel so-damn-great.
I did told them I'm fine. I'm used to it. blah blah blah..
I just can't tell them the truth, am I?
It's not that I love to lie but what can they do even if I say I'm not fine at all, ladies..
HTH am I going to be fine when it JUST 4 DAYS SLEEPING ALONE AND MISSING MY HOUSE.
So, where do exactly my-far-house is?
????
Actually I live in kuching SWK.No.I didn't born in SWK. I just live there.
With my lovely daddy. (I miss U so much already daddy..) I just moved in to his house about a year ago.. He lives there for almost 8years already.
So I definitely can't go back when it just 4 days,right?.
..boring..
Now I'm all alone..
Planning all the things I should do to keep my time wasted for another 4 days..
Seriously..
..I miss the smell on my bed..
..I miss the radios playing in the morning when my daddy's sitting with a mug of coffee and papers in his hand..haha..
..I miss the time when we have our lunch together talking about things..
Eventhough the time I spent with U are not that much,dad..
But the time I spent last year with U do means a lot for me. I get to know you.. I get to hear you and see you..
..and.. I get to love you more. I love you, dad. From the bottom of my heart. I hope I will never be separated from you again, dad.
Thursday, 2 February 2012
As A JPP
JPP stand for Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar. As we love democracy, yes, JPP was elected through election paticipated by the whole PMC (Penang Matriculation College) and students of this matriculation actually tick on my name to be chosen as a part of JPP. Total of JPP?only 20..the lucky ones ( I guess..)..And.. here I am. WITH A PILE OF WORK.HAHA.
I just come back after attending the meeting..
Hurmm..
Just for this month we have three big events happening and as a JPP we have to work to make it happen.
And still we do have anti's. I wonder why some people hate us. If they know how we work, they might change their mind,hope so. But..well..we do work in shades though.
Anyway.. I dont really care. Hate me all u want. Nope. I dont bother.hehe.
I'm just going to do my work and make all the events successfull.
Why?
Because I'm a JPP. And happy to be one.
I just come back after attending the meeting..
Hurmm..
Just for this month we have three big events happening and as a JPP we have to work to make it happen.
And still we do have anti's. I wonder why some people hate us. If they know how we work, they might change their mind,hope so. But..well..we do work in shades though.
Anyway.. I dont really care. Hate me all u want. Nope. I dont bother.hehe.
I'm just going to do my work and make all the events successfull.
Why?
Because I'm a JPP. And happy to be one.
Lost in the moments.
02.02.12. Nice date huh? My fav num, 2.
I dont know when it starts..
I felt loss. I lose myself.
There are nothing that can initiates my excitement any longer.
I thought it was temporary but no. It still happens.
I no longer feel the nervousness of taking exam neither the nervousness when look at my result.
I no longer feel the curiousness of learning new things.. and explore it.
I no longer feel to be friend or having a friend.
Studying no fun.
Talking no fun.
I seem lost in the moments.
Since I lost you.
No. It's not because of you. It because of me.
I got to gather back every tiny pieces I've lost and initiates my heartbeat again.
I dont know when it starts..
I felt loss. I lose myself.
There are nothing that can initiates my excitement any longer.
I thought it was temporary but no. It still happens.
I no longer feel the nervousness of taking exam neither the nervousness when look at my result.
I no longer feel the curiousness of learning new things.. and explore it.
I no longer feel to be friend or having a friend.
Studying no fun.
Talking no fun.
I seem lost in the moments.
Since I lost you.
No. It's not because of you. It because of me.
I got to gather back every tiny pieces I've lost and initiates my heartbeat again.