Scared.Scarred.

''If you are just going to hurt me more,then let just stop this.

If you are going to scar this already-full-of-scar heart,then lets just end this.''

I wish I can say that to you directly.

Bluntly, fearlessly..

But I just cant.

Know why?

Because I regard you as a part of me.

N I just can't..erase a part of me, can I?

I really thought I met a right person this time.

Why do you have to act like this n make me feel like running away again?

Why do you have to make me feel... unappreciated.

I really dont want to run away again this time.

Neither I want to throw you away like others.

Neither to erase you from my heart like before.

I really dont want to do that to you.

But I feel like doing it now.to you.

You said I'm one of them.The important one in your life.

You said you can open up when its with me.

Because I'm not like others.I'm special to you.

You should just said you hate me instead.

That'll be better.

You only come to me when you need me.

You regard my feelings as a small matter.

When you hurt me, you left me to heal it myself.

You didnt say sorry just because you didnt know how to,

And will never learn how to even for the sake of me.

You..

You are just the same like others before.

You guys..

Scared me. And scarred me.

How your little words can affect me.

How your little actions can hurt me.

It scared me.

And left my heart scarred.

I'm not expecting your whole time for me.

Just a bit to remember me is enough.

Just a word is enough.

I'm not expecting you to coax me when you do something wrong.

Just a ''sorry'' will do.

Maybe I'm expecting too much.

'' There are disappointments when there are expectations,''

I really want to run away and abandoned you right now.

Let it be that you have illness,

I really don't want to care right now.

Let it be you said you are alone,

I really don't want to think about it now.

All I can think right now is you scared me and scarred me.

I really really want to run away right now.

How will it feel when I'm no longer care.

No longer feel sorry for you.

No longer be there for you.

Hurm?

SYE