My little zone

Thursday, 14 March 2013

Now Everythings Easier ^^

I have own this Samsung Tablet for more than 1 years but never fully using its potential! I never knew that blogging through this thing is way much easier compared to laptop. Haha :P .
Now I think I can go blogging more frequently compared to before hihihi ♥♥

Sunday, 6 January 2013

Two different world.

When I first saw you few years ago..I know we live in different world.

But..I never know that being difference hurt so much.

And I didnt know that there will be a time when being different can make me regret.

Yeah.I'm regretting it.

Seeing how close you were to me but I cant reach you,makes me hurt.

You who never even take a glance on me..

Can actually make me fall for you.

But u never knew.

That I only wanted to love you.

I've been in denial.

I told myself over and over that I'm over you.

I don't even want to miss you.

I did what I have to do,

Erasing you.

If only I can block my heart from loving you as easy like I'm blocking your number.

If only I can shut my heart as easy as shutting my eyes.

Wouldn't my life will be better?

I wonder.

You and I live in a different world.

You hate my kind

N I dont want to be your kind.

You dont understand my kind

I dont want to understand your kind.

I will never be the one for you.

That I knew.

From the very first time I met you.

SYE.

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

[Short entry] Study!

Final exam is just around the corner..(>_<) !

We all spent most of our time studying anyway~

Taking my break time from all the stresssssssssssssss

WE are having our discussion but y does it seems like camping btw??HAHA

Messy giler kan????? :)

Ok.Lets continue our study okeh =.=

SYE.

Monday, 10 December 2012

My Fear.

I don't like to be in the dark..

Not because I'm scared of the darkness ,

But what's inside it instead.

I don't like rains..

Not because of I'm afraid I'll be wet,

But because I'm scared I'll cry..as it reminds me of tears..

I don't like high places..

Not because of the height,

But instead..I'm scared of falling..

I don't like having a lot of friends..

Not because of the number..but instead,

I'm just scared they'll leave me alone..

I don't like to tell you how much you hurt me..

Not because I like to stay silent,

But because I'm scared you wouldn't care.

I don't want to fall in love..

Not because I hate the feelings of love,

I'm just scared it'll hurt me more.

I'm still clinging on the past..

Not because I can't let you go..

It just that I'm scared of the fact that you're gone.

I don't like waiting..

Not because of the time..

But because if you don't come, I'll feel abandoned.

I hate to try again..

Not because I don't want to give you another chance,

But instead..I'm scared that you'll hurt me the same way you did.Again.

I don't like you..

Not because you broke my heart..

But because..you are capable of doing it again.

SYE.

Sunday, 9 December 2012

[KDrama Review] Missing You (보고싶다), 2012.

Zoe and Harry

(love them so much!)

This is a new korean drama. Another sad drama after Nice Guy ended. Lately, there are lot of sad drama isn't it?

Let me tell you a little bit about this drama ok~

The title of this drama is I Miss You (보고싶다),

directed by Lee Jae Dong.

This drama is still ongoing, it started airing on 7/11/2012..

Have 20 episodes totally and still not finished airing yet.

Casting : Micky YooChun (JYJ)

Yoon Eun Hye

Yoo Seung Ho

Jang Mi Ne

I've watched this drama for 10 episodes already. (because other episodes were not available yet. hehe )

I was actually waiting for this drama ever since I saw the teaser with Eun Hye in it (big fan of Eun Hye, yes me.)

When I first saw the teaser, I already can feel the sadness this drama will bring.

It is indeed different than cliche Korean Drama.

Same like Nice Guy (2012), this drama has it own uniqueness.

I already cried watching the first episode. I think Song Ok Sook (Soo-Yeon's mom) and little Soo-Yeon really bring the characters alive.

I like how the drama started. Rarely we can see a drama started with a dark side.But I think this drama really put it off.

''A murderer's daughter''

How she (little Soo-Yeon) fell in love and then betrayed, I think It's a really good start.

Instead of the main character Jung Woo, the one who shielded her with love is Joon (Harry Borrison-France name)

To tell you the truth, I hate Jung Woo.

A lot of people might not agree with me but I think Zoe (France name of Soo Yeon) better off with Harry.

The reason why she got raped and involved with Jung Woo's and Joon's family mess is because she was trying to save Jung Woo who's being kidnapped.

Bravely, she chased the van who caught Jung Woo and demand ''Give my friend back''

Even though she looks a bit stupid there to stand up on kidnappers but hey, she shows some loyalty.

She love Jung Woo and can't bear to see Jung woo's been taken away.

But what she get?

Raped and abandoned.

Pity girl. She deserves better.

When Jung Woo's finally able to cut the rope that tying him and the door was open,

the kidnappers was away.

He got up and look at Soo Yeon who lifelessly laying there after being sexually abused.

I definitely thought that he will help Soo Yeon and took her run away since its his fault that she was there in the first place but!

That coward just ran away alone, abandoned the pity Soo Yeon there.

Yeah. That's when I started to hate Jung Woo.

If it's not for Joon, Seo Yeon will be left dead. Alone.

Seo Yeon was claimed to be dead but Jung Woo believed that she's still alive.

He went through a hard life thinking how he wronged Soo Yeon.

14 years passed and Soo Yeon come back as Zoey while Joon's come back as Harry.

I really like this couple.

So what if Jung Woo live painfully for 14 years?

It's totally his fault for abandoning her there.

Soo Yeon suffers greatly and its Harry who protect her all those 14 years.

Thanks to Harry that Soo Yeon still alive.

They met again and all this mess started.

Zoey wants to erase the Soo Yeon-who-suffers-a-lot-because-of-him in her but Jung Woo keep reliving it and this makes Harry angry.

He may looked sweet and pure but hey, Harry's dangerous.

He's scary when he go mad.

For me, (totally my opinion) Zoe better off with Harry.

Yes, it's true that Jung Woo really love her and has pay all those 14 years live in regret.

But, Harry's the one who protected her and give her the hope to live so that she are what she are now.

Instead of someone who's being away,

doesn't it better someone who's always been here?

I wished I have someone like Harry in my life.

Well, I'm looking forward to the next episodes.

In the end..who's going to suffer?

Let's just wait for it.

SYE.

Mighty Mouth(마이티 마우스) - Good-Bye

Mighty Mouth released it new song recently, titled : Goodbye.

This is the last single recorded before SangChu went to the army.

I really love Mighty Mouth, so sad that he went to the army,

Have to go through it for two years without this group >_<

Pretty nice song~ As expected from my favourite duo,huhu..

Goodbye Mighty Mouth, we will wait for your comeback stage after SangChu comes out, ok~ ^^

This is the Hanggul lyrics :

(p/s: please forgive me if there are any spelling mistakes okay..I'm an amateur in this :p )

그동안 고마웠어 이제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

그동안 고마웠어 이제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제는 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

오빠 잠깐 다녀울게

you know every things gonna be okay

별거 아냐 울지마, 니가 울면 나도 괜히 슬프니까

남들도 다 가는거 잘 알잖아

예전보다 좀 짧잔하

근데 안이랑 밖이랑 시간이 좀 다르데 안에선 느리게 밖에선 빠르게

시간 나면 가끔 써줘 편지 밖같 소 시근 좀 어떤지

훅시 시간 나면 와줘면회 나 잊지 않고 갚으며 살게 평셍

거짓말 처럼 너머버린 서른

그래도 난 잘할야 적응

알잖아 난 Mr Enegizer 긍정의 힘으로 한상 가득 차있어

그동안 고마웠어 이제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

바로 어제까지 만해도 못느꼈었던 감정

약한모습 다 어떻게든 감춰, 야돼

강심장 가져야죠 너가 나보다 더 힘들단거 잘 알기에

애서 웃음으로 감추는 눈물 무거운 발걸음

걱정마 어디서든 난 항상 밝거든

그것이 낯설어도 나란놈 알잖아 금방 적응 헤

니맘은 여전해 그거아는데

이상하게 벌써부터 허전해

나말고 다른놈들은 다 거절해 그게 슬직히 난 너무 걱정돼

이건 이별이 아닌 잠시 긴여행

어늘을 우리들의 추억으로 기념해

지금 이 모습으로 꼭 다시 만나요

담에 만날땐 기쁨의 아녕

그동안 고마웠어 제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제는 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

You said goodbye, but I wont cry

우리 순간 잊지말 기로 해요

생각이 난 가슴이 아파와도 그대로 놓아주길

그동안 고마웠어 이제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

그동안 고마웠어 제 우리 안녕,

나 때메 힘들었지 다 미안해 안녕,

안녕,안녕 이제는 다 안녕 그 시간이 왔네요..

SYE.

Scared.Scarred.

''If you are just going to hurt me more,then let just stop this.

If you are going to scar this already-full-of-scar heart,then lets just end this.''

I wish I can say that to you directly.

Bluntly, fearlessly..

But I just cant.

Know why?

Because I regard you as a part of me.

N I just can't..erase a part of me, can I?

I really thought I met a right person this time.

Why do you have to act like this n make me feel like running away again?

Why do you have to make me feel... unappreciated.

I really dont want to run away again this time.

Neither I want to throw you away like others.

Neither to erase you from my heart like before.

I really dont want to do that to you.

But I feel like doing it now.to you.

You said I'm one of them.The important one in your life.

You said you can open up when its with me.

Because I'm not like others.I'm special to you.

You should just said you hate me instead.

That'll be better.

You only come to me when you need me.

You regard my feelings as a small matter.

When you hurt me, you left me to heal it myself.

You didnt say sorry just because you didnt know how to,

And will never learn how to even for the sake of me.

You..

You are just the same like others before.

You guys..

Scared me. And scarred me.

How your little words can affect me.

How your little actions can hurt me.

It scared me.

And left my heart scarred.

I'm not expecting your whole time for me.

Just a bit to remember me is enough.

Just a word is enough.

I'm not expecting you to coax me when you do something wrong.

Just a ''sorry'' will do.

Maybe I'm expecting too much.

'' There are disappointments when there are expectations,''

I really want to run away and abandoned you right now.

Let it be that you have illness,

I really don't want to care right now.

Let it be you said you are alone,

I really don't want to think about it now.

All I can think right now is you scared me and scarred me.

I really really want to run away right now.

How will it feel when I'm no longer care.

No longer feel sorry for you.

No longer be there for you.

Hurm?

SYE

Sunday, 28 October 2012

My typical weekend

we took this pic yesterday when outing to Spring with my dad n it was in fitting room! haha :)

My midterm break for 10 days started since last Friday.

I was so excited since I'll have more time to rest

BUT!

All my lecturers left me with bundle of assignments

Midterm exam right after our break ended.

Urgh!

Frustating!

I thought that when we have this break I'll have more time to spend with my dad but he have sudden meeting at KL for a week!

n left me all alone with Zinny at this house.

So..

all of that left me with this typical weekend.

no dad so no outing.

this is boring.

Me and Zinny were stuck at this house for the whole day.

Playing games

Watching DVD's

Making our own little spa

etc.

We were so damn boring! huhu

Can't wait for my typical tomorrow.

Hmm.

(>_<)

SYE.

Monday, 22 October 2012

Don't give me excuses!

Recently..you have a lot of excuses huh?
You know.. you can tell me the truth.
Its not like I'm gonna hate you if you tell me the truth.
It hurts me when you lied.
I hate it when you lied.

I wish you were just gone.
Don't remind me that you were still there.
If you wanna walk away, do it right.
Don't keep reappears and make me more confused.

I keep thinking..
Who am I to you exactly?
You keep giving me excuses lately
It's sooo not like you.

If you think that by lying you can hurt me less..
Wrong!
You only hurt me more.
You know I like truth more than anything else.
It hurts me to see how you force yourself..
I told you I'm fine.

I never asked for your attention..
Nor I'm fighting for it.
Because if you really love me.
I shouldn't have to do it.
So..stop with the excuses.

It's time to withdraw myself from you.
If you are reluctant to do it,
then..let me the one to finish it.
It's time to build a wall.

SYE.

Friday, 12 October 2012

Can't Help feeling Jealous.

In my life, I always want something that I can't have.

Strange, isn't it?

One of my friends used to say that,

"Things that u want, but can't have does not necessarily good for you..and vice versa.."

Yeah, she was right.

It always make me jealous when I look at other people who have someone that always will be there for them.

How they were loved,

How they were being taken care of..

And I can't help but to wonder why didn't I have a life like that?

It would be lovely isn't it?

I've been independent all my life.

I tried to lean on others but the fear of being betrayed live in every part of me.

It makes me hard to depend on others.

And to open my heart as well.

Since the last time I did that,

It hurt me badly.

I always said to my friend, it's okay if I was alone.

Since I'm used to it.

But obviously, it's a lie doesnt it?

Loneliness is something that I can't never get used of.

For once in my life I wished I have that kind of someone beside me.

Like he existed for me.

Someone who really care.Not just pretending to.

It will.. one day maybe?

N I'll wait..until that time comes.

My special someone. (^_^)

SYE.

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

At times like this.

At times like this.. exactly at times like this..I hate it when it comes to time like this.

Sometimes.. I wish I were stronger.

N much more honest.

When I looked around.. and saw that it was empty,

all I can do is cry.

These days are tiring and hard for me..

Just like snowflakes, I wish it would just melt away.

I wish you would just fade away.

I live my life laughing,

Pretending I dont care..

But the fact that my heart was longing for you can't never change.

If there was a way to separate my heart from my mind,

I'd done it.

If there was a way to kill my heart so it wont hurt that much,

I'd done it.

But as a normal human being,

I can't help but to feel..

And at times like this,

Exactly at times like this..

I miss you the most.

Seeing how my phone never rings..

And I cant even text you,

Somehow, it hurts so much

And I began to think again..

Why..why should it be you.

You who doesnt even know the slightest bit of how I go through my life each day,

You who didnt look at me the same way I do..

I cant help but to think that..

I wish my heart were smarter when it comes to love a person.

Because at times like this..

I just want you to be here,

Completing me.

Exactly at times like this.

SYE.

Saturday, 1 September 2012

New Laptop

It's been three weeks since my laptop stop functioning.

I guess it's time for change.

So, today I got a new laptop.

Goodbye my baby toshiba!!

OTL

I've been using my that since my high school days, quite some time huh?

It was my first laptop, I love it so much..

I've done a lot of experiment on that laptop including making a PV and MV for myself..

I learnt a lot from it,

But it's time to let you go baby T.

Nothing last forever...right?

My dad has been saying that I should be buying a new one last time it was broken but I insisted on repair it and still using it.

It was one of the thing that I treasured the most u know since it has been with me for a long time already.

I used to call it my 'life' and can't live without it.

It's true, though.

When I'm in Matriculation,

I ate with it,

Sleep with it,

Study with it..

There's so much i did together with it.

But I'll let u go now, baby T.

Rest in peace.

Sometimes.. even though you love something so much,

treasured the thing so much,

Even if you took good care of it..

If it's time to go,

They'll go.

SYE.

Monday, 13 August 2012

It's hard.But I'm doing it.

Everyday I woke up with the fact that you're no longer there.

But I'm still breathing so life has to go on.

Another day has yet to come..

Then again..I have to face the emptiness I felt inside without you.

Whenever I see something interesting,

Whenever I'm in seventh cloud..

Whenever I felt life was unfair,

Whenever someone blew my top off,

And whenever I felt like crying..

The reality hits me.

I CAN NO LONGER SHARE IT WITH YOU.

I'm still trying to understand how you easily move on,

How you easily laugh when talking about her,

How you haven't had the slightest idea about how I would feel when you act like that..

It's hard..But I'm doing it.

It's hard not to cry when I heard song related to us,

But I'm doing it.

It's hard not to remember everything we used to do together,

But I'm doing it.

It's hard to leave everything behind and forget them,

But I'm doing it.

It's hard to live without you.But I'm doing it.

SYE.

Friday, 10 August 2012

Sometimes, you just can't see.

''It's your fault for hurting me like this''

''You never consider about my feelings.I'm the one who expect too much.''

''Look at what you've done!It's all your fault!!''

''You never care about me at all!''

Heard it?

Said it?

Well.. as a human being, we tend to blame others whenever we have problems.

Whether in love relationship,

family,

works, etc..

It always easy to look at other peoples faults.

But.. why is it so hard to see our own faults and harder to admit it?

We always expect others to understand us.

Accept us.

Love us.

Just like we want it to be.

And when they are not just like we expected,

We get mad and blames.

We always think that we've done right.

But they always messed it up.

Is it really so?

Or we just blinded by fear of getting wrong?

Or just don't have the courage to admit that we were wrong?

Only we have that answer.

People make mistakes.

Why?

Because we are not perfect.

And that's what unique about human being.

How?

There's always room for changes.

Don't keep blaming others.

See more than just on the surfaces.

We can make the difference.

SYE.

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

The Sun Will Shine.

Well, nobody is perfect.

Flaws, mistakes, and regrets.

We live with all of that.

But..

There always space for change.

Turn on the new page.

For

New chapters, new stories, new journey.

One day,

The cuts will be a scar.

The moments will be a history.

And, today will be yesterday.

So why waste your time?

Complete the circle.

Wake up.

Move on.

Its time to be reborn.

I'll walk on,

To the future without you.

I'll change,

To be the better me.

I'll create,

New beautiful memories.

I'll smile..

So I won't have to cry.

The rain has poured,

The storm has passed,

The skies now clear,

Now

It's time for the sun to shine.

SYE.

Monday, 6 August 2012

Part of my memory.

Well..It all started back then when I was 14..I was egoistic and ignorant girl who knew nothing about love.And 6 years past after then.. I still don't really understand it.

Two months ago, my long-term relationship finally reach it stopping point. We broke up after 3 years dating and took a break for a year before we started dating again and after almost 2 years, he said to me he fell in love with another.

Holding back from my tears.. I said.. go and pursue your dream girl. I asked him whether he needs any help regarding that girl, he coldly said : I'm going to get her myself.I'm not stopping until I got her. (well..something like that). Hearing that, My heart was broken. But I laughingly said, yeah, you can do it.

Since the conversation took place on the phone, he can't see the trembling me. I cried a lot that day. Thinking.. blaming.

Well.. after two months.. I realizes thing I haven't for 6 years.

It just like this.

We were walking together, happily, side by side.

But at some point, one of us stopped.

And the other one keeps on walking.

Without turning back to ask, 'What's wrong?',

The person keeps on walking.

When the person realizes that he was far too ahead,

It was already to late to turn back,

Because the one that stopped,

Was no longer there.

It's hard to believe that it's over. I still cried listening to love song and it's still hard to watch love scenes without you popping in my head. But I do believe that someday, this will end. I'll move on and someday..you will just be a part of my memory.

SYE.

Too Lazy

Its been more than 2 months since I last posted an entry here.I was too lazy too update and all the story I planned to write ended only drafted in my head,haha.Since there's a lot going on in my life now, I lost myself for a moment.But, hey, I'm back.I'm not going to lose myself anymore. This past two month make me realizes something I haven't for the past six years. Well, let bygone be bygone. SYE.

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Alkisah kasut

Heels..kegilaan wanita wanita di luar sana.
Just now me n my dad went to Lea Centre since someone want to buy a sport shoes kan..
Hai..da lame sgt aku x beli kasut baru so teringin jugak la kan.

So while waiting for her to choose her sport shoes, aku pun pergi la tengok2 kot ade yg berkenan kat hati boley la beli kan...
Aku sbnrnye da lama da pasang niat kat hati ni nk pakai heels mcm lady lady sket.

Kasut ak sume flat je...... so nak la jugak heels kn at least ade satu pon jadilah.kononnye.

Nampak kasut kat atas uh? Ha! Aku suke kasut camtu la, yg style ala2 camtu kan. Serius berkenan!

So aku pon pergilah try men'try' heels2 yg ade.

Tapi! Masuk je kaki aku kat kasut tu mule2 smooth je, org kata ape lembuuuuttt aja kan.Sampai je kat bawah da sangkut.

Nak taw ape mslhnye???

Kaki aku lebarrr!!! X sesuaiiii.. Serius depressed.

Tambah2 lg kalo kasut tu ade tali2 mcm ni lg la x ley masuk.

Setengah jam dok try try ni x jumpa gak yg kot la ade lebar sket ann. Ak da nk merajuk da td ckp ngan my dad, ''Ayah, serious I dont wanna buy anymore, It make me depressed!'' . Yelah, bygkan kasut lawa2 tp x ley pakai wat saket hati je. Eish . Pastu ade org tuu da dpt da sport shoe yg die nk, tlg la plak crikan kasut yg lawa kan at least ade la gak kan..

Last2 flat jugak aku beli. Tarapalah, flat pon flat lah janji kasut baru, ye dok? haha. Bile tgk balek, style jugak kasut ni..my dad pon suke. Thanks eh sbb tlg pilihkan.Ayh pun da pening da nk lyn I td, seb bek u ade.ehek.^_^

So.Tu sajelah alkesah kasut aku utk arini yerk.kbai.

LeeSSang Vol 8 "Unplugged"

Here comes LeeSSang with their new album, the 8th volume, Unplugged.

The first track of this album, ''Modesty is Hard'' has been released earlier and it carry the fresh,upbeat sound of hip hop.

1. 리쌍 - 겸손은 힘들어

It's MV also has been released featuring two boys act as Gil N Gary at the age seven.

While the second track releases on 23rd May, ''My Love'' or ''Learning from you'' (the korean title) more to hip hop ballad with ''emotional and romantic-more'' lyrics.

2. 리쌍 - 너에게 배운다 (My Love)

This song doesn't have official MV yet but try listen it below.

P/s: The first moment the song start, it sent my flying, I can say. And with the smooth rap from Gary, added with Gil's voice, it just perfect! Daebak!!! hehe.

The 3rd track, title ''Someday'' and the rest of the album will be release on 25th May, . So wait for it, ok?

Monday, 21 May 2012

Forgot & Forgotten

You said..something was missing in our relationship,

yet..no actions to find it.

So how can the empty be filled?

Whenever you put your games and friends on top priority,

Whenever you keep your line busy every time i tried to talk,

Whenever you are scared of people discovers about our forbidden relationship..

You forgot.

I'm the one who's being pushed away.

N this is the way you loves me.

You said..

Wounds of the past are not yet healed.
You are wounded.N hurt.

And you forgot.

The wounded me.

Yet you say you love me.

'' You are a distraction.

So wait and understand.''

Thus again,

Like a fool.I'm waiting right here.

Frozen with the time.

When you are too busy deciding,

You forgot you chose me.

When you are too busy felling hurt,

You forgot the bleeding me.

When you are too busy searching for excuses,

You forgot that you forgotten me.

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At times like this.

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